Oh the Drama

I have just recently realized that females, such as myself, sometimes thrive on drama. I never thought of myself as one of those people and yet over the past few weeks I seem to have created extra drama around a relationship of mine, which then caused a strain in said relationship and unneeded stress on myself!

All this extra drama though also led to a cleansing of the relationship... Cleansing meaning that it caused us to sit and really talk about where we stand and what we are both looking for and wanting from each other. Turns out that my drama was around this expectation that there was an expectation of something sexual occurring which I was in no way comfortable with. Reality- I am slightly nuts! There was and is no sexual expectation on his part at all. I was so revealed to sit down and really go through the conversation that cleared it all up!

We are really good friends and although there is an attraction there we are good as friends! I love that. We are able to talk about whatever is going on in our lives and to have a guy friend like that is wonderful. I am very lucky that I have so many male friends in my life- they care about me, listen to me and are a little protective of me, which is super sweet and awesome! My females friends, not to leave them out, are just as- if not more important. They are supportive of me and my chaos although they also have the ability to ground me! I love each of them!

After all this I remember something that I learned at the beginning of November at AuthenTalk with Greg Moores; we go through a cycle of learning.
1- Listening
2- Awakening
3- Knowing
4- CHAOS
When we get stuck in a state of 'knowing', where we just know how things are meant to work the universe will turn your world into CHAOS so as to get you to listen again. Have you ever known something so surely and then one day it turned out it wasn't true at all? Isn't it interesting how that happens?

This is what my relationship was like. I created this chaos so as to be able to listen and learn again. I am really glad I created it. It turned out to be best! Funny how the universe works. :)