Abundant Test

It seems like the universe has been testing me lately. I have come up against or to many situations where I must choose one thing or another. In March it was a well deserved and very needed vacation or one day of work which they were unable to replace me with. And this week it was core team at MMI in Toronto the first weekend of June or being here to hold the room for a guest trainer coming in from Denver for our new group/ community.

In March I did not want to disappoint anyone. I did not want to disappoint work and not show up because I made a commitment to them. I also did not want to loose $900 which I had paid for the trip. In the end it all worked out and I went on my trip and the day of work, which they replaced me for ended up being canceled. In the end I had made the right choice.

Now, or this week, I faced the choice of two wonderful things. This is not a situation in where I could choose both. The two events are running at exactly the same time. EPIC-U (our training company we are starting as the Buna family) is holding space for Aspen DeCew on Saturday June 5th here in Montreal, while Peak is holding MMI in Toronto June 4-6th. How was I meant to choose between the two of them? They are both things that I have been working so hard to reach!

When I first received the email from Peaks asking me to work I wanted to scream. I was so frustrated at the universe for sending both of them at the same time and making me chose one. Then I stopped my thought and redirected, "Thank you universe for giving me both of these wonderful opportunities!" The universe does not send you want you have not created or what you cannot handle. I understand this so I sat down for a debug session with my dad around why I am continuing to create situations where I must choose one thing or another thing.

When I commit to something I see it through. I am reliable and dedicated. I do not want to disappoint anyone because I don't want them to be mad at me. I also don't want them to leave. I am scared of being alone. I discovered ALL of that from the energy that was surrounding this situation. In the end we debugged around, "I freely choose from my heart" Once I was debugged I work an email to Peaks and said thanks for the offer but I am going to have to say no for this event. For whatever reason my heart and intuition is telling me that I need to be here for our event.

I trust the universe and myself. I trust that this is the correct choice although this weekend it has been tested already! Oh universe you are special aren't you?!