Summertime?

So it is April 3rd this morning in Montreal, Quebec, Canada and the high for today is meant to be 24 degrees Celsius! Yesterday it was the same. I cannot tell you how wonderful it was to go for a walk with my dogs yesterday in flip flops, shorts and a t-shirt. Then to go and sit by the water in Lachine and eat a small skor blizzard from Dairy Queen really topped it off. It truly felt like summer around here yesterday. A phenomenally gorgeous day overall.

The summertime feel of the day got my thinking about my summertime plans this year. There are so many things that I want to do and get done and be a part of that I honestly do not know how it will all pan out. I suppose that you never know how things will turn out until they do. I only suppose that I have learned a few times recently that everything will work out perfectly and just as it should... Perhaps I can just trust then?

This is me though so I am going to set an intention here for myself and the universe. The universe ultimately makes the final decision and I understand and respect that but if I don't tell the universe what I want then how can it know what to send me?

I intend to work Warrior in BC, come home and have a week off then drive to NY and attend ULC. Stay in NY and krew Warrior then fly out to BC again and work MOSHOG. From BC drive down- road trip- to Fresno to krew Warrior CA OR fly to San Fran and drive to Big Sur to camp then continue the drive to Fresno for Warrior.

Now back to the part where I wrote very wisely I believe; 'if I don't tell the universe what I want then how can it know what to send me'. As I was writing this or I suppose more honestly as soon as the sentence formed itself in my mind I thought about my situation with boys... I have the idea of what I want however I seem to consistently not be ready to receive it even if the universe sends it. This then tells the universe to stop sending me what I have asked for because I am not receiving it's gifts. Make sense?

I feel like for some reason in my mind that if the universe sends me the perfect guy for me now that this is it. That this guy will be the one and that we will get married and blah blah blah. I suppose that somewhere in my mind I understand that this is unlikely to happen but I seem to still not be able to manifest the right guy for me. However this thought makes me then question who's to say that the right guy for me right now is not the guy that has already appeared or not the guy that I meet tomorrow? Perhaps all of these 'not the right guy for the future' guys I keep getting involved with are actually the perfect guy for me now.

"Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, today is a gift; that's why they call it the present." That's the saying right? So why can't I simply enjoy the relationships that come up now in the present and allow the future's mystery to enfold?