Thursday, November 25, 2010


Today is American Thanksgiving. Here, in the country that I call home we have Thanksgiving in October- at the beginning of October none-the-less, whereas the country just to the south of us has their celebration this weekend- today specifically. And so after the day I had I felt it would only be appropriate to be thankful for something and to share it with you- obviously since I was inspired to write.

The Millionaire Mind Intensive in Toronto, Ontario is starting tomorrow morning. Today was our set up day. We spent the day setting the room, preparing hand outs and training the staff of volunteers how to assist with the various jobs they have to cover.

So right now I would like to take the time, before my head hits the pillow for the night, to thank each and everyone of the phenomenal people who have shown up to assist us in making this event incredible for the participants. It was wonderful to watch everything just get done so smoothly and synergisticly (which may or may not be a word) today. Everyone did what they had to do and asked how they could help and just got things done. At the start of the day I had set the intention to be completed with our tasks and ready for the next day by 4:30 pm... well we were done and eating dinner ready to leave after food by......... 5:10pm!!!

I am just so proud and excited to get to work with this amazing team all weekend. And so again I say thank you to each of them for showing up and thank you to the universe for sending this particularly awesome team to this event!

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Growing Up

I am currently at my dear friends the Ofners; Nick and Denise, who have three kids; Madison who is 7 and two 4 year old twin boys- Adam and Aaron. In May of 2009 I babysat these kids at my house for a weekend. At that point they still required a lot of attention and assistance with much of what they did. Now however they have grown up so much. The boys are finally speaking English to a degree where I can actually understand what they are saying! They are putting their socks and shoes on all by themselves, true that their shoes are velcro but still!

Watching these kids grow has been so wonderful and it made me think of how much I have grown. I mean at one time in my life I was a four year old too who had just learned to tie my shoes and to dress myself. Now I am just over a week shy of turning 25 years old. Holy smokes! When did that happen exactly? Where have the years gone?

I always thought my parents were so weird when they said stuff like that because I was young and the time between birthdays felt like an eternity! And yet this year in particular seems to have literally just FLOWN by! I cannot believe that we are almost at 2011! What happened to 2010? I guess what they say is true- "Times flies when you're having fun!" Because honestly this past year seems to have just flown by! I suppose in the end it's a good thing because I truly have been having a TON of fun this year.

I guess the point of this post was to simply acknowledge that growing up can be fun and exciting as much as it sometimes painful to experience certain things in the end they are all lessons for us to learn from and I am sure I still have many lessons to come.

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Friendship Regardless

I have been underestimating my friends. I understand that not everyone is able to relate to everything I am going through and have gone through because I have experienced some pretty intense things, however there are many things happening in their lives that I cannot really relate to either.

Realizing that even though we do not relate in the same way anymore does not mean that we do not care about each other. Not long ago I wrote about going out for dinner with my friends and not talking for very long. One of them pointed out to me that no one was stopping me from talking and that if I wanted to share I could have. And she's right. If I really did want to share with them I could have done so. And her stating it to me the way she did was like a much needed slap in the face! It made me notice that she still truly does care about what's happening in my life and that I was just in judgment.

So again I would really like to say thank you to Marie-France for continuing to be there for me even when I don't realize it. I appreciate that you are there for me!!! xoxoxoxox

Sunday, November 21, 2010


Tonight was a very emotional night for the Buna household.

We had ourselves a little chat tonight and it just stirred up a lot of emotion in each of us, although we each has our way of dealing with it. I cried of course. It really doesn't take very much for me to cry. My heart virtue being fulfilled makes me cry pretty easily, a really good movie where it all ends happily ever after makes me cry, or a moving story makes me cry. Anyway point being that I cried tonight.

My father. My father impresses me more and more everyday. Tonight he sat in front of us and spoke his truth as difficult as it may have been for him with honesty and love. I could feel him melting into what he said and I could almost see the stress of what had been weighting on his mind lifting as he spoke. I cannot even imagine my dad ever having been able to speak to us like that before. If something was bothering him he would simply clam up and not let anyone in until one day he'd explode and yell about it. Now he sits us down and just lets us know where he's at and what's going on for him. He does not stop himself from feeling whatever is going on and allows himself to be open and vulnerable. It is incredible.

My brother. Sebastian is amazing. Tonight it just became so apparent to me how much he has grown up lately. I have seen the growth over the last couple of months but tonight was just awesome. He sat and listen to everything that was being said and when asked to respond he said something along the lines of, "You've always been there to support us, and I will always be here for you" So of course what do I do? I begin to cry- just as I am now while writing this. When my mom sees me she asks, "What's wrong?" and I respond half crying half laughing- "He's just grown up so much!"

I am truly blessed to have these incredible people in my life. They are always there for me and I am always there for them. We are here to support each other and to call each other on our shit. So once again I would just like to say thank you to my ohana (family) for being in my life.


Tuesday, November 16, 2010

What level are you?

The other day while talking to a very good friend of mine I had yet another AH moment or understanding. Something I have begun to notice is that when I take courses it's impossible to really comprehend everything that I learn while I'm there, however "real" life situations occur and I am able to refer back to a lesson that was taught to help me understand what is going on.

When I attended AuthenTalk over a year ago now, Greg Moores talked about a 1-10 rating of life model. He asked us if you were to rate your life right now on a scale of 1-10 (10 being off the charts happy and 1 being suicidal) where would you be?

My answer if I can remember correctly was probably a 7 or an 8. As a matter of fact most of the people in the course raised their hands when he asked, "How many of you are a 6, 7 or 8?"

This is what he taught; the average person, one who is simply content lives their life as a 6, 7, 8 because that is an 'acceptable' state of happiness. Since the average person lives there it is easy to relate to each other. If someone is feeling lower than a 6 then someone who is a 6-8 would feel compelled to bring that person up to their level because we don't want anyone to be depressed. Here's the real kicker though- when someone is feeling like their life is a 9 or 10 then people living in the 6-8 levels want to bring them down so that they are not above them.

When you continue to surround yourself with 6-8 level energy people then you will continue to have a 6-8 level life. When you decided to start hanging out with level 9 and 10 people then you will be brought up! Do not allow people to bring you down, instead support them and raise them up!!!

Thursday, November 11, 2010

When did that happen?

When did I become insignificant?

Last night I went out with my girlfriends from home. There were five of us there, myself included and I spoke for about five minutes. Five minutes of boy talk and that was that. When others shared I would offer my opinion and sometimes I felt like it landed on some but certainly not all of them.

Here's the problem though- when I am with them I can feel myself go into judgment and then I feel their judgment of me judging and it's this really bad circle that doesn't seem to be getting any better. Anyone got any suggestions?

I did not even get to tell them about all the travelling and people I have met recently or about my bungee jumping experiences or my sacred gifts. AHHHHHH here's an ah ha moment for me- last night my gift of encouragement came into action- I was there to listen and encourage when needed. Andrea and I both have this gift in spades and it shows when we are the last two people to talk and we only hold the floor for a small period of time.

Super HUGE thank you to Monique MacDonald!!!

Friday, November 5, 2010

The Greatest Thing Cont'd

I attended my first Peak Potentials Training course in January of 2008. Life Directions was the course that called to me the most. I flew to Vancouver to take it and LOVED it. After that I was hooked. The energy of the room and the transformation that I got to witness and be a part of was simply phenomenal. In the end it’s not surprising that I love working with Peaks as much as I do since at Life Directions I discovered that my mission is to motivate and empower people to live with integrity, to be themselves and to love life. Working with Peaks I get to watch and facilitate this all the time!

My other family members began with the Millionaire Mind Intensive, like the majority of the people who have come to join the Peak Potentials family. This course was actually the sixth one that I took and I still learned so much from it. The Millionaire Mind Intensive is a three day course that deals with your money blue print; your thoughts, feeling and emotions around money that may be holding you back from realizing your financial dreams. It is now newly re-vamped to also included a step by step process of how you can become financially free. This three day intensive takes place in cities all around the world and is complimentary!

Here’s the link for more information; The Millionaire Mind Intensive.

Please feel free to message me if you want more information. I cannot explain to you just how much I value being a Buna and being able to continue to grow and learn and to now have a beautifully supportive and EVERY large extended family.

The Greatest Thing

A very good friend of mine, Nick, and I play a game where we ask each other questions and we have to answer them. At first the questions were pretty basic such as what’s your favourite colour, movie, tv show. Then they became more interesting like what do you want to do with your life or where do you want to live. The question that he asked me last night though was probably one of the best ones.

“What’s the greatest thing that has ever happened to you?”

This question made me really think because there have been so many things in my life that have been truly amazing. He then said to just pick one. “Being a born a Buna. Being born into this family!” This is easily the single greatest thing to ever happen to me because this one thing has made my life the way it is now.

When I was about 10 years old my parents began their path and journey to enlightenment. I got to benefit from it. The first thing I remember my mother teaching me, although it made me mad, was that everything everyone is simply a reflection of myself and that when I do not like something that they do it means that I do the same thing sometimes and I don’t like it then either. In the end this was and still is a lesson for me on a daily basis. When I was 17 my brothers and I attended the Landmark Forum for teens. We enjoyed it a lot and decided to continue and take the Advanced course. A week or so before we were set to begin the ten week seminar Landmark informed us that my youngest brother would not be allowed to attend. He was a year too young now because of some situation that happened elsewhere. We did everything we could to get him in and when they said no we said fine. We have never done anything with Landmark again.

About a year later my parents came home one night and said, “We’re going to the Millionaire Mind Intensive in Toronto.” I wanted NOTHING to do with it. My heart virtue of Integrity had been violated once by a personal development company and I did not want to experience that again. On top of it I had school and could not miss. They all went. They all came back and I did not even recognize them. The four of them were off the charts. They had so much energy and enthusiasm for whatever had happened that weekend that I was now intrigued.

Thursday, November 4, 2010

Goddess Radiance

Tina and I had a good four hours of just chatting and debriefing time on Monday during our drive back to Kingston from Waterloo. We talked about boys, about Halloween and about how our relationships with friends, females and males have changed over the course of the last little while, since doing the work with Peaks.

Here's something that we agreed upon that I found to be my major AH HA moment of the car ride.

When I was younger I used to resonate most strongly with my pseudo masculine traits; thinking that I don't need anyone's help and that I can take on anything or anyone. It used to bug me so much to watch females in their pseudo feminine because they would constantly collapse into weakness and whine for attention. I have been doing a lot of work on myself and my own growth and understanding of not only who I am, and also what the world is and who others are. I feel that I have a greater awareness of all of those things and awareness is the first step to being at choice.

Now when I see females in their pseudo feminine it still bugs me but not because I am in my pseudo masculine; because I am in my divine feminine. Being the divine feminine energy is about radiance and love and going with the flow. This radiance is what makes women beautiful and unstoppable. Have you ever seen a woman that you simply could not take your eyes off even though her superficial beauty was nothing spectacular? It was likely because she was just so comfortable and happy with who she is and she was just shining.

I am not saying that I live here all the time but at least now I am aware of when I am living in which energy. I have my moments of resonance with each of the four; pseudo masculine and feminine and divine masculine and feminine.

Now for the big AH HA of the whole conversation...

When I am living in my divine feminine; goddess radiance, guys are more attracted to me. I do not even mean sexually I just mean that they enjoy being around me and I seem to have a lot of guy friends. When I am in that energy though if I am around a female who is not there yet then she wants nothing to do with me. I sense that I become the competition somehow and there is jealousy there. When I am with my female friends who are in their goddess more often than not they are loving and supportive and all about my growth. They encourage and support me to shine bigger and brighter instead of dimming me down.

I love my life and I love my friends and I am going to continue to hold space for them to grow into the beautiful goddesses that they are since they have allowed me my space already! To the boys in my life thank you for being the container and holding the space for my growth and for being able to stay grounded when I become a whirlwind. It's beautiful to know that I have people in my life who can handle my wonderfully chaotic goddess energy.


Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Observer Effect Part 2

WOW! What a treat it was to watch the ducks in action Sunday night! Out in Waterloo with Tina's friends; a group of highly entertaining boys decided to go as Duck Hunt. Do you remember that game? The old school Nintendo game where the ducks fly around and you are the hunter and you have a gun and try and shoot the ducks then this hunting dog comes out and laughs whenever you hit a duck? That's the game. There was a hunter, a dog and four ducks.

Easily one of the funniest things I have ever witnessed. The getting into costumes was SOOOOO entertaining. They taped their shoes with orange duct tape, painted their legs orange, wore white beaters and white shorts cut open a feather pillow and dumped it onto a tarp in the living room then proceeded to spray themselves with adhesive spray and roll around in the feathers. Truly entertaining to witness. The dog was probably the cutest of all of them though...

Anyway the most impressive part was watching them in the bar. Other than the hunter the boys are all single. I have never paid attention to the way guys work until that night. The ducks came onto the dance floor in a "V" formation; tribute to the mighty ducks. They made a circle just them to dance and soon their circle had a bunch of girls in the middle of it. Honestly I'm not even sure how it happened. I mean the boys are pretty cool and have very fun and easy going energy so it did not totally surprise me that the girls were seriously attracted to them but they were COVERED in feathers! Did the girls not notice? :)

At the end of the night they all went home alone but man did they have a good time. Watching them made my night. They were just having so much fun. I really enjoyed my night as well. I just relaxed danced and sang along to basically every song they played- retro night is always the way to go! In the end I had a ton of fun because I was totally unattached to what the outcome of the night was to be. I had no expectations, only the intention to be there for Tina and to have fun! AND my intention became reality!

Thanks for a fabulously entertaining weekend Duck Hunt and Tina!

Monday, November 1, 2010

Observer Effect

Halloween is always a very interesting experience for me. This year went to two different parties and dressed up differently for each. I decided that for the first time ever I would be a little bit more on the slutty side and so I went as a call girl, Chicago inspired. And for me it was pretty ambitious. Then my second party I was Madonna while Tina was Brittney from their video together, "Me Against the Music".

Now of these two costume one is obviously more revealing than the other but neither one of them is as scantily clad as some of the outfits I witnessed this weekend. I was both impressed and slightly revolted that girls, and even some of the guys for that matter, would ever wear the things they wore.

I am keenly aware of that fact that I am in judgment here so let's just state it right off the bat and I can continue this post without you being in judgment of me being in judgment. Does that sound fair?

Halloween is a fantastic excuse to use to do whatever you want and to be something you are not OR to be something you've always secretly wanted to be and have not had the guts to do in real life. It is the one day of the year that it is accepted to dress as a axe murderer or a hooker or a cowboy or a juice box. Some of the costumes I saw were very clever and funny while others really made me think about how these people may feel about themselves.

There were a group of about 9 girls who had their hair sticking straight up in a cone shape above their heads and each of them had it spray painted a different color. They had skin colored fabric wrapped around their boobs and a skirt of the same color as their hair. What where they? I had to ask because it wasn't making any sense to me! Turns out they were trolls. Do you remember those weird troll dolls that people just loved and collected? I suppose these girls along with some others who were equally if not more scantily clad have their reasons for doing it the possibilities just escape me. As for the guys there were a few that were just slightly disturbing; guys in female bathing suits and other with just super creepy energy.

Anyway stepping into an observer roll last night was highly entertaining for me. I got to watch people interact in way they may be outside of their norm because it was accepted. I'm curious as to what a normal night out for them would be though... being in a costume is a safe and acceptable way to do things that you would normally not do. It's just interesting to me and I felt the need to share it with you!