Sunday, December 25, 2011

Happy Holidays :)

It is Christmas day, which got my thinking as to what Christmas means for people. To be completely honest with you Christmas has become a time of year for me to stop and be with my family. The best part about Christmas is being together.

Last year was the first year that we were not all together for Christmas and it was so odd. This year it feels like everything is as it should be again. We spent the last two days shopping together, which can be very draining by the end of the day, but ultimately pretty fun. We only ever really shop when we come into the states- unless we need something specific while we are at home.

Surprisingly to some and perhaps not to others I enjoy shopping with my family. They are the first people to tell me whether or not something looks good on me and they certainly are honest about it. I love getting to voice my opinions in return of course ;) I also love how we can all make of of each other and ourselves making the day more lighthearted and fun.

I am so very thankful that I have such amazing beings in my life and I realize this is not Thanksgiving, it's Christmas, but I am going to recognize just how thankful I am for my mom, my dad and my two younger brothers. They support me, make fun of me, challenge me, love me and make me laugh constantly and I LOVE them so much for all of that.

Merry Christmas to everyone who celebrates and happy holidays to anyone who does not. May this year's holiday season bring you lots of love and even more laughter!!!

Friday, November 18, 2011

Stage

For as long as I can remember I have never had an issue speaking in front of people. I can stand on a stage in front of 500 people easily and speak.

How many of you reading this are thinking, “I hate speaking in front of people!” ? Did you know that the number one fear in North America is the fear of public speaking? And that the root fear of that is really public humiliation and ridicule?

Here's what I've learned over the last couple of months; when I stand in front of people and I am genuine, having fun and as is'ing EVERYTHING it is easy. Although I suppose that being able to as is everything also means that I am able to laugh at myself.

This weekend I am on stage at The Millionaire Mind Intensive in East Rutherford New Jersey as the Assistant Trainer, which is not the position that I was meant to be fulfilling here. Yet somehow the universe decided that it was time to see if I could step up once again.

Here's the one thing that I have noticed this time around. Here in NJ they enjoy dancing; which means they are my kind of people and I am having a BLAST with them!!! I am really looking forward to spending the rest of the weekend with these amazing people. It's going to be a really fun weekend!!!

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

Occupy

In our journeys around New York City so far we wandered down to the financial district. Irma really wanted to be a witness to Occupy Wall St. (which by the way is not on Wall St.- it's in Liberty Square which is about a block away from Wall St.)

We got to the financial district and began walking towards Wall St. looking for them. About 10 seconds later though we found tent city in Liberty Square.

I have not been following ANY of this! I do not watching the news or really pay any attention to any of it. Irma on the other hand works in the financial sector and therefore is fascinated with the history that is being made through these protests.

Liberty Square was certainly a sight to see and now I can say that I witnessed it; a piece of history apparently. I am slowly beginning to understand what they stand for, because Irma has been explaining it to me. I understand that the American economy has major issues and that somehow the rich keep getting richer while the middle and lower classes are falling farther behind.


Legislation is put in place for a reason and if you cannot bother to understand the reason you should not be changing it! Until you have a firm grasp on the WHY it was written up in the first place you have no right to be messing with it. Which from my understanding is why they are in this mess in the first place.

And even if it's not illegal to do what they did it's certainly was not morally correct. I just cannot help but feel like there must be another way to do this. Here in New York the site is peaceful, a little noisy with the drums but peaceful. Whereas in Oakland, CA it has not been as peaceful and it has caused closers to shops which means that people aren't able to keep working which now just compounds the problem!!!

I believe in my heart of hearts that this will all work out for the greatest good in the end; I am just curious as to when that end will show up.

Monday, November 14, 2011

NYC 1

I realize that I have not posted anything for a few months now; which I now think of as odd. However during that time period I obviously did not feel the need to post. Today something told me it was time to begin blogging again.

I am currently in NYC staying in Midtown with a friend of mine mine Peaks who got a time share week here from a friend of hers. I have been to New York City four times now (the first time was so short and I was young- I don't normally count it) and there was one time that we came in just to see a show.

I got in Saturday evening and Irma and I decided to go walk around. We wandered down to Times Square- which I have decided is WAY to packed and chaotically stimulating- with all the lights and noise for me. The ONLY reason I go back there is to stand in line at the TKTS booth for awesome discount Broadway show tickets!

Sunday afternoon we went to see Mary Poppins, which was delightful to say the least. I left the theater feeling like 'anything can happen when I let it' and that life is full of possibilities when you believe and have a strong support system.

As I sit here in my room there are sirens BLARING, very loudly in the direction of whatever they are rushing to save. The city is full of lights and sounds that echo off of all the buildings and make me realize just how many people actually live in this city, on this island.

Being on the Empire State building tonight; looking out at the billions of lights that cover the city from ground to sky and as far as the eye can see, made me feel so small. No matter what way you turned there were lights and cars and people walking and sounds from every direction. I still cannot even register the magnitude that is this island; this concert juggle. There are no stars here... well I mean they exist we simply cannot see any of them. We can see planes though, and we can certainly see lights!

What's my point you may be wondering... to be completely honest I was kinda beginning to wonder the same thing and to be frank with you; I am not so super that I have one. Did you have a realization while you were reading this blog that you would like to share? Perhaps you found a point!

Enjoy looking for one if you didn't the first time through.

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

Summer Journey

Where do I even begin?

I have had the most incredible journey this summer. On Thursday July 7th, 2011 I departed my house in Montreal for a cross Canada adventure. Surely there is no other way to classify it other than adventure.

From Montreal to Kingston, ON to pick up my co-pilot- Tina, and then to her family's cottage for the weekend. It was the perfect way to relax and rejuvenate before heading on our way. From one cottage to another just outside of North Bay, ON we stayed at the Preston cottage for the night. After a long drive we finally crashed in Wawa, ON the next day. Thunder Bay was next on the list although we camped at Kakabeka Falls (primarily because the name was so fun to say) for the night before moving on again in the morning.

Winnipeg, Regina, Saskatoon, Edmonton, Banff, Calgary, Kettle River and now Vancouver.

I have learned so much on this trip about myself, about others and about how I deal in relationship with others.

The first week of the trip was really challenging for me. Tina was a tough mirror to be sitting next to in a car for that long. I was annoyed and unable to express it. Had I said something at that time she would've likely been on the next flight home because I would have been blaming her for my own shit. So I did my best to sit with my shit and sort it out on my own before sharing it with her.

Then a magical thing happened. We arrived in the Rockies. It was almost instant actually... All of a sudden I was able to express what had been going on from a place of love and understanding instead of judgment, hurt and anger. I shared my feelings and in turn held the space to hear and acknowledge hers.

I cannot even begin to explain how thankful I am that she is in my life. She has provided me with the space to really deal with my own stuff with love. I know it was not easy for her but she did it anyway and it gave me the chance to learn so much about me.

Tina- you have been the most perfect person to have in the car with me throughout this journey. Thank you for being here!

(There's more to tell on this journey so stay tuned)

Tuesday, July 5, 2011

Beauty

I finally bought myself a new camera. I have been wanting a Digital SLR camera for years- since I was in University really which is now 4 years ago- shocking I know! Anyway I finally made the investment in a camera. I figured there was no better time to do it really since I happen to have income and I am leaving on a cross Canada road trip on Thursday... That's two days from now! TWO!



I will be taking pictures all over Canada and I am so EXCITED!!! I have been talking about this trip for months now and the day is arriving! I am basically packed already. I have just not done food, journal, computer and books yet. Shoes too- I am going to buy hiking shoes today.

This journey is about discovering the beauty that lies within Canada and appreciating the country that I live in. I am very excited!!! I will keep you posted on my adventure!

Thursday, June 23, 2011

Virtues all around us

I began my training to become a Heart Virtue expert a few weeks ago and low and behold I began seeing virtues EVERYWHERE!

Do you watch Grey's Anatomy? I watched this season in sections. One day I would decided to catch up and watch four episodes at a time. This season Meredith and Derek have begun their clinical trial for Alzheimer. Turns out the chief''s wife has the disease and Meredith gets her into the trial and switches her medication so that she gets the real drug instead of the placebo.

Derek is furious at her and Meredith stands by it. She would do it again if the same situation came up. Why? Why would she put the whole trial at risk to be shut down? And why would she potentially give up her career for this woman?

Meredith Grey is committed to loyalty to people! She doesn't give a shit about the principles when she could potentially be saving a person's life. She houses so many of her fellow doctors and stands by them constantly- even when they are wrong because she is committed to them. Whereas Derek is committed to loyalty to principles or something like integrity, truth, honesty.

I find it so interesting how I can see heart virtues all around me. I suppose since I discovered my own I have seen them only now I can actually identify them, give them a name and form easily.

I am committed to Respect, Integrity and Confidence. What are you committed to?

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Disconnected Darcy

This past weekend I attended the "I Can Do It" seminar run by Hay House. I got to see Dr. Wayne Dyer, Caroline Myss, Debbie Ford, Doreen Virtue, Robert Holden, Cheryl Richardson and Lousie Hay! It was a fantastic weekend with many new lessons for me and some familiar reminders.

Debbie Ford does shadow work. Which is to say that she not only acknowledges the parts of herself that she does not like but she works on understanding how they serve her and how to really love them as part of her. In turn making herself whole and complete.

This is that same lesson I have written about so many times- we have all of humanity within us and whatever we see out there also exists within. When we disregard it, it has power over us. However when we acknowledge and embrace it we now have the power over it.

This weekend I met, "Disconnected Darcy"... she is part of me. Something that I really like about myself is my energetic, friendliness. And the opposite of that for me is being disconnected. Debbie took us through the process of personifying that trait, hence "Disconnected Darcy", and exchanging notes with them.

And so I asked Disconnected Darcy what her gift was to me; protection- I allow you know when to stay away from bad energy and that it is ok to not be involved with everyone that you meet. Then I asked, what do you need from me; be there and allow me to be there for you. Listen to me when I speak to you. I am here for you. Question number 3 is what will be available to me in the future; your soul-mate is Darcy's response. She says, by being open to the possibility that not everyone person is meant to be part of your life you will be able and willing to open up fully with the perfect person for you.

It's really very interesting to have this conversation. If you would like more information about how to do this work pick up Debbie Ford's book, The Dark Side Of The Light Chasers
-it's amazing.

Friday, May 6, 2011

My Best Friend

The first time I remember thinking that this person was my best friend I was in grade 3 or 4. They just always seemed to be there when I needed them; kind of magically actually. They listened. They cared. They spoke kind words. They empowered me to be the bigger person. They taught me all they knew while still giving me the space to make my own choices and learn my own lessons, which let's face is never easy for a parent.

My mother is one of the most incredible people that I know. She really is, still to this day- 15 years later- my best friend. She cares about me than even I realize. She provides yummy meals; most of the time... I still remember one meal that none of us liked and she did not cook for us again until we ate it- we had three full days of eating cereal! :-) She is there for me when I need her and even when I don't. She still lets me make my own choices even if she 'knows' what's best ;)

My mom pushes me to be my best by constantly striving to be her best.

We have our moments. I am not going to pretend that our relationship is purely sunshine, flowers and butterflies because lets get real; in order to have the flowers we first need the rain and in order to have a butterfly they must undergo a major transformation! Without our 'moments' our relationship would not grow or strengthen.

Yesterday we had a moment. And I would like to acknowledge that I was doing my 50% of the relationship at about a 20%. I was allowing my own hurt and frustration affect our communication and that created a mess.

With all the lessons I have learned in my life I have spoken about the one that started it all before... My mom first taught me that everything that bugs me in someone else is a quality that I too posses and am not fond of at that moment. And so I sat with that, once my father reminded me of the lesson yesterday evening, and I now understand what was so challenging for me yesterday.

I have been overly critical of myself lately and the efforts that I am putting in to plan our June event. I am putting a lot of pressure on myself to make it succeed and if it fails I am the one who is responsible for it. Therefore when my mom gives me feedback, instead of taking it as her way of helping with the event I have been taking it as more criticism and just adding it to my own list that I have going. Yesterday was a breaking point for me. I could no longer take the beating I was so kindly giving myself, and yet I blamed her for it. I did not take one ounce of ownership for what I was putting myself through and I blamed her for all of it. How is that fair?

Today is a new day and I would like to formally apologize to you mom. You are so beautiful and loving and I am so happy that you are in my life and you did not deserve what I put you through yesterday. I want to say thank you for being here to bounce ideas off and for listening when I ask, even though you are busy doing your own work. I want to say thank you taking care of me and for continuing to love me even when I act like a jerk.

I love you mom and you are still my very best friend!

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

WHY? Item 1

"The bigger the WHY, the easier the how" - no clue who said it first... I heard it at Peak Potentials.

My family and I have started a new company. For those of you reading that do not know about this the company is called EPIC-U; empowering passion, integrity and confidence. We are committed to creating empowering experiences for people so that may know themselves and how they can make a greater contribution to the world.

EPIC-U is hosting it's very first event in June and it's coming up FAST! We are very excited about this event. We are bringing Greg and Tamara Mooers Montana up from Miami to run the two day workshop. I first encountered Greg Mooers Montana in the summer of 2009 when he ran a process at one of the courses I attended. The process was 'unlocking your Heart Virtue'.

When I uncovered that I am committed to Respect, Integrity and Confidence this knowing and complete understanding of why everything has happened in my life exactly as it has came to me. My actions and motivation and vision of who I am and who I am meant to be were so clear. It was a little scary in all honesty how much sense all of it made.

Recently I seem to have lost sight of what an amazing impact Greg has had on my life. You see tonight I sat down with my parents and worked through some stuff that has been coming up for me around the event. Registrations are not where I would like them or expected them to be. When we first created the event I was sure that we would get a great registration count and would have an intimate and phenomenal weekend. Now I was having some hesitations towards that thought pattern.

It seemed like everyone I was talking to 'really wants to come but cannot figure out how to make it work financially right now'. What a surprise that I am focusing on 'lack' and people who are also focusing on 'lack' keep showing up... If there is one thing that I have learned about myself over the course of my life time it's that if I want something badly enough I figure out a way to make it happen. Most of the time how it ends up happening makes no sense to me and yet the universe figures it out.

Therefore I sat down and wrote out WHY I want people to come in June. Here's what I came up with:

I want each person who attends AuthenTools for Life in June to have fun as they step outside their comfort zones, into the unknown in order to discover who they really are and what they are committed to! I am committed to each of them experiencing their lives at a level 10 and experiencing themselves in their power and in their greatness. Playing small does not serve the world- it is only by stepping into our greatness and power that we unconsciously give others permission to do the same! At AuthenTools not only will you be given permission to step into your 10, you will be challenged to do so with love and encouragement. I am committed to step into my own greatness and therefore hold the space for each of you to do the same!

"The bigger the WHY, the easier the how"

Monday, May 2, 2011

Where to go...

So as you know if you have read my blog over the past month I have started a 'work out'/ 'get in shape' program of sorts. Today is day 11 that I have been going at it and I am very proud of myself for making it to day 11! Therefore it's time to celebrate!!!

WOHOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! YEAH ME!!!

OK 3 seconds done. Now I have a question for all those runner/ jogger/ walkers out there. Where do you go to run/ jog/ walk? So far I have stayed close to home and gone along the bike path that we have and around the neighbourhood streets. Today I stayed on the path only and actually used the grass on the sides instead of the pavement. I am not sure if my body is thanking me or rebelling at the moment...

Anyway I would love to hear where your favourite places are to go- maybe they'll give me some inspiration! Have a fabulous day!

Thursday, April 28, 2011

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

Art stage 2

Today has been a long day of mostly painting and some mod podge... Here is stage two of my art project!

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Art stage 1

Here's what I accomplished on my first day of crafting with Mom! I am very excited to continue tomorrow!!!

Art

My beautiful goddess sister Kelly came over this past weekend. She is doing a 'soul restoration' course through Brave Girls Club. While she was here she showed me some of the craft technique videos. Such as what you can really accomplish with Mod Podge, one of the greatest crafting tools EVER! Mod Podge is a glue and a sealer and it keeps many things on canvas such as beads, tissue paper, embroidery sting and mosaic tiles.

Watching these videos with Kelly got me into a crafting mood. Which always makes me excited because I really do enjoy being creative. And so today is crafting day with mom. I have sketched out what I would like my painting to look like and I am open to adding lots of stuff to it as I go. This painting is to be an homage to Peaks and all the camps that have transformed my life in so many ways. I have been wanting a tattoo since I attended Enlightened Warrior Training Camp in June of 2008, however I have not yet taken the steps to get it done. I suppose I am still debating really if I want to have any design, even if it's one I LOVE, tattooed permanently on my body... To top that off I still do not have a design that I LOVE.

I suppose the point of this post is to ask you what are you doing that is creative? I will be painting and crafting today and writing this blog post is also part of my creativity. You can collage, colour, draw, write, photograph or read even- I challenge you to do something using your right brain today!

Sunday, April 24, 2011

Jog/ Walk

For as long as I can remember I have not liked running. Now that I really think about it I'm pretty sure it's because I'm not that good at it. How can someone not be good at running? You may ask. My answer to that is; have you ever seen the episode of FRIENDS where Rachel goes running and Phoebe wants to join her?!



Although when I say that I am not that good at it I mean that my lungs just do not enjoy not being able to breath easily. However I have recently realized that the only way for my lungs to expand and improve their breathing capacity is to practice. And so I have taken up jogging/walking. I am taking it easy on myself and slowly improving each time I get on the street. I jog a section at a decent jogging pace and then I walk a section.

So far I am on day 3 of this new lifestyle and I am happy to report that I have improved. Friday morning I did weights and then a jog/walk, Saturday morning I did an abs yoga program and this morning I did weights and a jog/walk again. This is progress and I am sharing with you because I am celebrating!!!

One thing that I took away from Enlightened Warrior Training Camp when I took it back in June of 2008 is that a warrior celebrates their success! They accomplish something they celebrate it. So this is me celebrating AND committing to getting in shape and losing 50 pounds! This summer I will be making it to peak 5!!!

Thursday, April 21, 2011

Scale of 1-10

What would you rate your life on a scale of 1 to 10? 1 being you are ready to end it all and 10 being you are so excited and happy!

If you answered anything below a 10 then what is missing to make it a 10?

What is one action; something courageous, that you can do to get you closer to that 10?

What would your life look like if it were a level 10?

I am extremely fortunate that I get to say my life is a level 9! I LOVE my life! I choose to create my life exactly as it is. I get to choose what I want to do and when I do it. Yes there are certain limitations as to what is within my means, however I make everything I do worth it!

I am currently working at promoting an event that my life is organizing. Greg Mooers Montana, the creator of Heart Virtues and is wife Tamara are coming to Montreal June 17-20th. I am so looking forward to this weekend because these two people communicate solely with your 10.

You see each and everyone of us has a piece of us that is completely committed to having a level 10 life. As long as a piece of us is committed to a 10 they will continue to speak to that piece and push us to take courageous actions to get ourselves to a level 10!!!

How would your life feel if the people in your life were all committed to their lives being a level 10 as well as your own? Do you think your life would look different than it does now? How so? Would you feel more empowered? Would you be more willing to continue to take courageous actions everyday? I am sure I would.

I am committed to you having a level 10 life and so are Greg and Tamara. If you are interested in creating your level 10 life than register for their weekend. It's going to be incredible! This is the link to the registration page. I look forward to having the most amazing group of people who are all committed to their lives being a 10 at this weekend!!!

See you there!

Friday, April 15, 2011

AuthenTools for Life

AuthenTools for Life -

Join us June 17-20th.

Greg and Tamara Mooers Montana are coming to Quebec!

They are committed to seeing that 6 billion people discover the treasure that lies “within” by knowing their Heart Virtue and then living in alignment with what is most meaningful to THEM!

They will be doing a two-day workshop Saturday the 18th and Sunday the 19th of June. Over the course of the two days you will uncover your Heart Virtue, discover how to listen to anyone without reaction, reveal the invisible potential hiding in your shadow, create a way to acknowledge your boundaries with anyone in your life and learn how to establish divine and fulfilling partnerships.

The event will be taking place at Hotel Cheribourg in Magog, Quebec.

$997 all included;

- 2 days with Greg and Tamara; 9am to 7pm

- 3 night stay at the hotel; double occupancy

- 7 meals (Dinner on Friday the 17th is on your own)

- Access to all hotel facilities (there is a SPA onsite should you wish to book a treatment $)

Click the link above to register!

Monday, April 11, 2011

"Happily Ever After"

What does 'happily ever after' mean to you?

I am currently reading “Learn our Heart Virtue” by Greg Mooers (the title of the book has changed now and is “Unlocking you Heart Virtue”). On page 66 he writes:

Although we have fantasy movies that portray 'happily ever after', this is perhaps one of the worst concepts ever introduced to humanity: “One day we will live happily ever after” and we will “arrive” and be complete in life. That poses a question: What do you call the completion of life? I call it death, I don't know about you but I am in no rush.

This then obviously made my body react instantly and my mind work. I giggled because I had never thought of it the way he posed it and I was appalled because I have always believed in 'happily ever after'. However I don't think that I ever really thought about what 'happily ever after' actually means to me.

'Happily ever after' means that I am happy. I am passionately and joyfully making a contribution to the world and I have supportive people in my life whom I love and who love me. 'Happily ever after' does not mean that I suddenly stop living. It means that I get to continue to live without any restrictions. I am healthy and wealthy. I have the capability to do whatever I want, whenever I want and with whomever I want. I am living my Heart Virtues of respect, integrity and confidence while communicating beautifully with people I encounter.

I understand that some may have or that perhaps even I have had the thought that 'happily ever after' meant married with the man of my dreams (which incidentally is still in my new version of it) holed up in a castle somewhere, with all these riches and nothing to do. I guess a beach somewhere would be nice too. I just know that this version would not actually make me happy.

I believe that part of being human is relating to others and making a contribution to them and to the world at large. Have you ever seen the film Pay it Forward? It's about how your contribution to one person will affect another and then another and then another and etc. Positivity is contagious and I believe that to be 'happily ever after' you need it- I mean think about it could you be happy and not positive? I think it would be pretty challenging to do it any other way!

So what does 'happily ever after' mean to you?

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

EPIC-U

So excited to share our new company's website with all of you! We have some very exciting things in the works! Stay tuned!!!
EPIC-U

Thursday, March 24, 2011

Reel Wisdom: Lessons from 40 Films in 7 Minutes

It's amazing what people can piece together. I enjoyed the wisdom in the video.

Monday, March 21, 2011

Katy Perry - Firework

A goddess sister of mine, Katie Mullen, posted this video on her blog. I had heard the song before but hadn't really paid attention to it. It's AWESOME! Thought I would pass it on. Check out her blog; http://katie-mullen.blogspot.com/

Thursday, March 17, 2011

101

This is post number 101 for my blog!!! I say that deserves a celebration!!!

Today I want to make mention of just how grateful I am that I have such incredible people in my life.

The Millionaire Mind Intensive
took place in Toronto, ON last weekend and we have around 350 people the that room transforming their financial lives. Here's the thing that I sometimes forget though- it's more than just the financial aspect of their lives that got transformed. Sitting through that three day intensive pushed you beyond any comfort zone that you know or are used to.

Suddenly you are reconditioning yourself for success in all areas of your life! One of my absolute favourite quotes from Secrets of the Millionaire Mind is "How you do anything is how you do everything" p. 121 This means that although this course focuses on the money game whatever you learn here can be applied to every other area of your life; family, friends, work, sports, hobbies.........

Anyway this weekend I got to witness these 350 people transform their lives and have some fun. Then to top it all off I got to work with some of the most phenomenal people EVER!!!!!!! They made my life easy and FUN! The team of people working at this event were all there purely from heart and to serve. They showed up ready to get the job done and do whatever it took to have a successful event. The team gelled so nicely together and supported each other on all tasks. I was so very proud to be part of the magic.

Thank you team Toronto! Much love xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox

2012 - The Revolution Has Begun

Please take the time to watch this video. What are you going to choose? I choose LOVE.

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

Once upon a time...

Once upon a time in 10 years from now since I have been living in my heart virtue I find myself in the mountains. I am surrounded by nature. I get to play in the forest with the trees, flowers and water. I can roam and run free. People come to visit and be in this amazing space because it nurtures their heart virtues, their littles and their dreams. This space is open, loving, creative and welcoming. I love being up here because it's my BIG taking care of my LITTLE! Right little?

I get to bring people here who encourage us to live in our hearts and be our most incredible and loving selves! The experience is phenomenal and totally priceless for all of us! I get to experience all of my gifts and share them openly with others! I get to watch and support others stand in their power! What an amazing life and total gift to have! I am so thankful!!!!

Wow Little, this dream of yours gets more and more detailed- I am so on board, I can totally feel how excited and committed you really are!

And so once upon a time, in 10 years from now we will be running a beautiful retreat centre up in the mountains for everyone and anyone who wishes to return to nature and to nourish their littles. It is going to be SO much fun! We are going to get to work with individuals, couples and families. We are going to allow them the space to connect with their littles and to heave FUN!!!!!!!!!!!! we are going to love them. We are going to believe in them, and we are going to acknowledge them for doing ti all on their own- for themselves and their world!!!

SO exciting!!!!!!!!!!

Wow Little I had no idea you had it in you! This is awesome. I know you want to share, and we will. I will speak this to people. I will have them listen and hear you! I guess I am gonna have to learn how to cook?! I know you have been wanting to- I will learn for you. Actually we will learn together and we will make YUMMY food!!! But we will get some help with cleaning! “Yup that sounds like a great plan because I don't like cleaning too much. But you know what? When it's in preparation to have awesome people over it's not so bad!” :)

Well Little we are also gonna come up with come programs! What are we going to do up there? “I will think of something Big. You gotta be willing to listen and work with me though.” I can do that. You just gotta remind me to listen and to trust. “I can do that!”

All right let's do this! Let's have some FUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Preface

I have learned that I have a 'little' or an essence, or a higher self, whatever you would like to call it. I prefer to call it my little because it's way more fun. My little is my spirit and that which ideally makes all the decisions in my life. My big- is me with all of my conditioning and ideas of what should be and what is important. I have luckily had many conversations with my little over the years so that concept is not totally foreign to me- however I have never had one quite like this. The following post is the most recent conversation I had with my little. Enjoy.

Saturday, March 5, 2011

Taboo

What's the one thing that people would NEVER call you?
What's the one thing that you would NEVER want to be called?

That's the one thing stopping you from greatest!

It is very interesting how we program ourselves to stay safe. I mean our brains are wired in such a way as to protect us from harm. Hence why many people do not step out of their comforts zones; if they did what could happen?! They could get hurt.

What would your life look like if you stepped up into a situation where someone MAY think that one thing people would NEVER say about you? Of course it does not mean that they would think it, it just means they might and then what would happen to you if they did?

Example- I have been asked several times over the past year or so if I have ever considered becoming a trainer- either with Peaks or outside of them. I have safely responded with- it's not resonating with me right now and I like where I am for the moment. Both very justifiable answers and currently true, however am I missing something? Am I not owning up to the fact that yes perhaps I would love to be on stage?

(I discovered that this 'taboo' we had come up with is not my actual taboo however for the purpose of this example it works perfectly, so go with it)

I am a nobody. This is one thing that I do not want anyone to ever say about me. That I have no purpose or right to say what I have to say. Therefore could you imagine what it would be like for me to get on a stage and train others on how to stand in their power? What gives me that right? Who the hell am I to do that? What would my life be like if I could stand there and train and not allow their thoughts of 'who the fuck does she think she is?' to affect me? Or better yet allow them to push me to be even more in-tune and more awesome?!

So again I ask; what is the one thing that no one will ever think about you?

The course I am currently attending is called; Life Formula with Greg and Tamara Mooers Montana, for more information click HERE and HERE

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

Complicated

I sat down to work on my taxes on Saturday February 27th, 2011... I finished them today, Tuesday March 1st. I still cannot even believe that it took me that long to actually complete them fully. Last night I was done the rough draft. Today I went to re-copy and write out nicely in order to send them in. While I was transferring the numbers I discovered that I had made a slight error in calculations somewhere along the way!

Brutal!

I am now finally DONE!!! I will be getting money back from both the Federal and Provincial government, which makes me smile. More importantly though I did the majority of them all on my own!!! My mom helped me out towards the end when I seemed to be making some really silly errors because my eyes were going cross eyed after staring at the same numbers for three days!

When I first sat down and attempted to being I was at a loss because the way I used to claim was no longer an option since I was both and employee and an independent contractor this year. So my forms were not the right forms and I wasn't positive about how I was meant to file and mind frick about not knowing what to do began. It kept me pretty stuck for the better part of Sunday actually.

Monday though I was determined to figure out how I was meant to do my income taxes. And I did. I finished up around 11pm Monday night! Had myself a little celebration dance then went to sleep- a very restful and wonderful sleep I might add!

Lesson: what I focus on expands. The more I felt they were complicated the more complicated they seemed to get. Once I decided that I could handle the complications the easier they got. Focus on what I can do and get that done. Each step completed is a success and deserves a celebration!!!

On that note- I worked out for the second time this week today!!! Ya me!

Saturday, February 12, 2011

Martyr Mirror

A martyr in the context of what I am referring to, by definition is; "a person who seeks sympathy or attention by feigning or exaggerating pain, deprivation, etc." I have recently discovered that this quality in people that I have been interacting with drives me CRAZY!

It took me some time to process what it was about this person that was bugging me so much. Then it finally hit me. They were not playing a victim per-say, rather they were playing the part of the martyr. They could do no wrong. They were the ones putting in all the effort and exhausting themselves getting everything done just right and no one else was assisting, supporting or able to do as well. Once I figured out what it was that was bugging me I knew instantly what a fabulous reflection they were for me.

I still do it. To this day I have my moments where I feel like I am the only person who can do what I do and that even if people try to help it's never good enough or I could do it better. How is it that after all the work that I have done on myself I still have those thoughts?!

Anyway a BIG learn for me from witnessing the role of the martyr being played is to be very aware of my actions and thoughts, specifically while working events in order to notice and choose differently. I choose to allow others to assist me and I choose to step them up for success by giving them as much support as I can.

Thank you to Kelly for really making the mirror crystal clear for me. I love that you can see what I cannot and most of all you have the balls to call me on it! xoxox

Thursday, February 10, 2011

Situations

Situations, or moments occur in my life all the time- by definition a moment happens, well, every second does it not? Anyway. Sometimes I am impressed and other times a little frightened at how off topic my brain and thought process is. I always get to a point eventually but go about it in such odd ways sometimes. You are probably wondering what the hell my point is and why I seem to be avoiding talking about it...

So situations... I manage to find myself is some execpetionally and oddly constructed situations. My friend Nick says the movie of his life is a sitcom and after last night I would agree with him. If my life were a movie I like to think of it as a romantic comedy... at this point however it feels more like some twisted drama or film noir with a not so funny sense of humour.

You see Nick and I have sort of been seeing each other but are not 'official' by whatever dating standards there are. We enjoy each others' company and were just having fun. We decided that it worked for us. About a month ago I came to the decision that it was no longer really working for me and that it would be best to be friends. I care about him deeply and there is no way I would be willing to let go of our friendship, I just couldn't see it getting anymore serious than it already was. So I began to deal with my choice mentally and decided to talk to him when I saw him. Only when I finally did see him I couldn't seem to find the words.

I finally explained it to him last night. He was fine. And then he shared how funny it was that I was saying this now. Why do you think it was funny? Betcha you cannot guess! It was like the universe was pulling some sick and twisted joke on both of us. Nick was going to ask me out right before I went a said I wanted to be friends. Seriously? Seriously!!! I had to laugh because it was just too ridiculous. He said it so well, "you just broke up with me before I even asked you out" How special can I be?

Situations... how do I manage to create them? I know in my heart that Nick and I are meant to be great friends. I know that we are there for each other and that we will continue to support each other. I just also know that we are not what we need romantically right now.

Nick- you make me smile, all the time, with all the silly things you say and just by smiling at me. Thank you for being there for me. xoxoxox

Oh situations...

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

Carnival

Dimanche matin, Kelly, Tina et moi-même, ont rendu dans mon voiture et ont a partie sur un aventure. (On Sunday morning Kelly, Tina and myself got into my car and left on an adventure.

Carnival in Quebec City was waiting for us!!!

After a three hour car ride we arrived at our destination. We checked into our beautiful and quaint hotel room, which had a brick wall, then headed out to join the festivities. Walking around the site was challenging, with the combination of snow, slush, hills and many, many, many people. We managed to see a lot of what Carnival had to offer.

Walking around I got to watch parents pull their very young children around on little sleighs, adults zip line above the festivities and adults and children alike play in a game of human fooseball! Truly an entertaining experience.

From Carnival we walked around Old Quebec, which is a sight to see. The buildings are so old and cute. I love walking around and looking at the old stone houses all stuck together which have now been turned into hotels, like the one we stayed at, and restaurants, like the one we had breakfast at, and shops of various varieties AND who can forget pubs- like the one we stopped to have a drink at after dinner. We saw the Guinness sign and walked into the very busy pub... it was super-bowl. We made some friends, watched the end of the game and then walked our butts back up the hill to bed.

Monday morning was breakfast, some more sight seeing and a tube ride down the hill at Carnival before heading back to Montreal. Overall this trip was a major success! We laughed and ate and played and just enjoyed each other's company. Here's the video of the events, should you wish to view it!

Saturday, February 5, 2011

Pack-up Queen

The month of January 2011, was a whirlwind. I am honestly not sure how I got through all of it. From Calgary to Montreal to Rawdon for retreats back to Montreal for another MMI... to finally... SPA Day!!! In the end of course I had a phenomenal month and would not change it for world... during it though I certainly had my moments.

I came home from Calgary and headed out to Rawdon for a grade 5 retreat. It was fun. Not super challenging but fun none-the-less. I got to return home for the weekend and prepare the house and my room for guests before leaving for Rawdon again on Monday morning. This time the retreat was high school leadership group- my favorite. I have worked with many of the students before at previous retreats and I was so happy to see them again. Some of them actually gave me a hug when they got off the bus.

For three days I got to witness teens grow as leaders and really step into their power. This retreat was like nothing Dynamix had ever done before and it was AWESOME!!! I was so proud of Amanda who developed much of the program and of the students for taking it on! By the end of the retreat I was grinning from ear to ear. I am still grinning. I was just so proud of all of them!!! I also learned ALOT about myself and how I am better at going with the flow and making adjustments than I give myself credit for.

From the retreat back to Montreal I drove- on my own, without a radio. Admittedly I figured out another solution and just put my iPod on! Anyway point being that coming back to Montreal and home would normally be very relaxing... this time was all about picking up people from the airport, making sure the house was ready for all of our guests and making sure everyone ate. It was a busy evening which lead to an even busier weekend which gave way to incredible transformations for over 500 people! Was the chaos worth it for me? Abso-fruckin-lutly!!!


I played to role of Karma Krew Coordinator and Pack-up Queen! After many a debriefs with my wonderful krew I have figured out that I have a lot of work to do. I have myself a list of things that I can do differently for next time- a big one being to be more present to what's actually going on within the team. Being on pack-up there was a lot of stuff that I did not personally witness but heard about... Here's the problem with that- when I go to address a situation I feel unprepared if I have not personally experienced it. I can only really talk about my own experience anyway right? Big learn for me right there. Whoever the Karma Krew Coordinator must be someone who is in the event room the majority of the time.

As far as pack-up learn; I am so proud of myself! I killed the pack-up!!! I began packing on Saturday so as to be as prepared as possible for Sunday night. I enjoyed playing tetrus with the boxes on the pallets! It was also kind of nice to be doing a job on my own. I got to be proactive and responsible for myself and in the end the team because the better I did the faster we all got to leave on Sunday!

The best part of the last month; taking the time to stop and unwind. Monday morning a group of ten of us, that worked the event, headed out to the spa. We went from outdoor hot tubs, to dry saunas, to nap time, to steam sauna and arctic pools. Dedicating this time to myself was easily the best thing I did this month. After going, going, going, all month to finally stop and relax was wonderful.

Next big learn- take time for me! My work, although super fun and rewarding takes a lot of energy and in order to keep doing what I do as well as I do it, I need to learn to recharge my batteries and take some time off in-between.

Thank you so far 2011!

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Communication

How do you communicate?

7% is verbal
38% is pitch, tone, volume
55% body language

I am currently in Canmore hanging out with my friend Amy, who was actually one of my wonderful roommates while I worked for Disney Cruise Line. She has been here for a little over 2 years now and she gave birth to one of the cutest little boys I have ever met seven months ago. He is a mover and a shaker! He crawls around everywhere and is perfectly content to just hang out in his play area for hours at a time.

Amy has created this square area with foam tiles for him to hang out in and there must be about 20 toys in there with him. He pushes buttons and tosses things and makes noise and you can just tell that he is loving every minute of it. When he looks at you for the first couple of seconds he's not entirely sure what to make of you and then if you smile at him he gives you this huge toothless grin right back. He's gonna be a real charmer!

This morning though Levi was not doing so well. His tummy seemed to be hurting him. When you are 7 months old how do you communicate with those big people that take care of you? Your language skills are not exactly able to really explain what's going on so you resort to crying and screaming, because you know it makes noise and it gets a reaction. Hopefully those big people are smart enough to just know what's wrong with you and what you need or else you may just have to keep screaming.

Here's something I have noticed. Some people as they grow up still do not develop the language to really communicate how they are feeling about something. Not to say that they do not speak, they do- they just have a harder time articulating what they are saying and/or they don't even want to share. There are people who still communicate by yelling instead of having a calm conversation. If pitch and tone is 38% of how we communicate saying, "I love you" softly would make someone's heart melt, whereas saying "I love you" when yelling could make someone cringe.

I am lucky enough to have had life experiences and to have developed my language skills beyond that of an infant. This is a reminder to me that I can use them! I know there are times where I could easily be communicating much more effectively and something stops me. Therefore- note to self; be aware of how I feel and how to communicate it.

Thanks Levi!

Friday, January 7, 2011

Et Bon

What a feeling. I am currently sitting in the chalet, upstairs at Mont Habitant- the ski hill that I learned how to ski on at the age of 4, watching both skiers and snowboarders come down. The sun is just peaking through the clouds and there are VERY light flurries descending upon the hill. The snow conditions are good, a decent mix now of groomed and natural after a good number of people have come down. The wind is there but it's easy to handle with all your gear on. All in all a pretty ideal day to be up.

It is now 11:15 am and the hill opened at 9. Therefore you are probably wondering what the fuck I am doing inside. Well I am already injured. Not majorly or anything but enough that if I were to keep going I could do some serious damage to my arm and that would not be pleasant. Therefore I made the choice to stop, even though I was only out there for an hour and a half, and only got to do one full run down the hill... we started on the bunny hill.

I am proud of myself though. I can get down a hill without any major issues doing what I know how to do. So far all the hard falls I took today were when I was pushing myself out of my comfort zone and attempting to get better at snowboarding. You see I began skiing at the age of 4 and I even won the gold in my ski class when I was 8. However we stopped coming up around that time and my ski skills are adequate to get me down and get me down pretty gracefully at that. When I was in grade 9 I decided to try my hand at snowboarding. I did it on a trip to Mont St. Anne and was pretty bad. Not awful but not awesome. I skied a few times after that, since I was more comfortable doing that and I owned equipment. Last winter I took my brother's board and came up to this very hill.

I had magically improved! 9 years later I could now get down a hill successfully on my heals and I managed to get onto my toes a few times. I decided to buy myself a board, bindings and boots- got them at a clearance sale for $172!!! This morning we began on the bunny hill. I was good. I went down on my heals. Went down on my toes. Went to carve and feel. HARD. On my butt and I'm pretty sure I have bruised my tail bone. Then we got up on the actual hill- small hill but still the hill that requires you to take the real chair lift up. About half way down I fall on my knees and put my arms out to brace myself from falling flat on my face. Kill my arm. I don't even understand how much it hurt. I am 99% sure it is not broken though because I actually have full range of motion still. When I bend my arm all the way up though it's painful and I can't really put any weight on it.

Hence why I am now sitting indoors writing this post rather than continuing to push myself to learn and get better at boarding. For $20 a day though I am happy I got an hour and a half in and I am prepared to get back on the hill when I get back into town in February! Today I am thankful for my very patient brothers who are really good and could easily have done 10 runs by now... and yet they are each teaching friends and helping them learn and get down the hill. It really is pretty amazing to watch them in their gifts.

Et bon, in the end I have had a good morning.

Thursday, January 6, 2011

Nowhere

I had established a little while ago that I want to live in the middle of nowhere and I believe I have officially decided that this is a great idea!

While in Hilton Head, although it's not in the middle of nowhere by any means it is a very small, quite and quaint area. It's a beach and golf area and therefore very relaxing and conducive to creativity- for me anyway.

Now I am up north, or what we call up north because it's north of Montreal, at Geny's cottage. I am sitting upstairs looking out at the frozen snow covered lake and writing this post. It is snowing ever so lightly, which just adds a magical aspect to the place.

There's something about being outside of a major site and closer to nature. The more connected I feel to nature the more creative I feel. The more I want to write, or craft and read. This then makes me really want to live in the middle of nowhere. I know what my backyard looks like. The house itself is still kinda fuzzy- I only know that I have a bay window I can sit on in my bedroom looking out on the back yard...

My backyard has a large wooden deck with a huge barbecue (basically it's an outdoor kitchen) and then there's an in-ground pool with grass behind that- a large grass area you could play touch football or soccer (not the size of a whole field but big enough to run around in). Then it's woods. It's a beautiful forest that you walk about 10 feet into and you are at a babbling brook or stream- a body of water that moves and therefore makes noise that you can actually hear from the house. From the deck you look out and see the forest and mountains. It's so beautiful.

I have two visions of the place. One is packed with people. There are people everywhere in the yard laughing, swimming, playing, cooking, drinking and just having a fabulous time. It's super social. The other vision is super quite. There's me and maybe one other person but we do our own thing much of the day. I talk walks, write, read, swim, lay in the hammock and cook. We sit down and eat in front of a fire and then read on the couch at night. It's just really relaxing.

So ya I have officially decided that this is what I want. I want to be able to live in the middle of nowhere. About an hour away from a city is good so that when I feel like being out on the town I have somewhere do go. Wonder where this ideal location is... I'll find it. Or it'll come to me. Anyone got any ideas? And once I find it, wanna come visit? Or maybe help me build it?! :)

Have a fabulous day! Go out and enjoy nature. Or stay in and observe the great outdoors. Just appreciate it and be thankful for it. :)

Monday, January 3, 2011

19

I love hanging out with fabulous people and that's exactly what I got to do New Years Eve 2011!!!

Departed from Hilton Head at 1:30pm December 30th, 2010, we drove all night and arrived in our drive way at 10:30am on December 31st, 2010. At this point I went into crazy mode. Cleaning, organizing, decorating the house and picking up more groceries. Much of it had already been done by my awesome brothers and adopted sister, Tina, but we still had enough to keep us busy till even after our first guests arrived at 2:45pm.

We had full families and individuals, we had boys and girls, we had young and more experienced people, but mostly we had a GREAT time!

We sat 19 people at our table for dinner. The feast included turkey, sausages, rice, mashed potatoes, 3 different salads, cranberry sauce and bread. The meal was delicous but I honestly was just so happy with having all of the amazing people sitting at the table with me that the meal could've been McDonald's and I still would've thought it was amazing.

We played Catch Phrase- awesome game- which had us rolling on the floor laughing a few times! We watched the ball drop. We drank. We talked. We shared an experience. This new years really is one I will remember for years to come.

Thank you so much to each of you for spending it with me. I am so grateful for the extended Buna family. And the immediate Buna family.



Mom- you are strong and beautiful and an inspiration for me to always stand up for what I believe in.
Dad- you are so caring and generous and I look to you to remind to always do what my heart tells me to.
Chris- you are so confident in who you are and what you are about, I look to you for strength.
Seb- you remind me to always have fun and to just enjoy life and everything that happens!

Love you xoxoxox